Night

Once dawn has fallen, the night crawls back. It creeps upon you slowly; gradually the scene dulls.

Then enveloped in sharp black before you realise.

Sometimes the night sky holds promises of glinting stars - messages from distant galaxies. Signs of chaos and fire and fusion. Letting you know that things continue elsewhere, even if everything in your life has come to a standstill.

Starless nights imply one thing only.

When I feel

The warmth of your body,
There is nobody,
That I'd rather hold.

Shattered and cold.

The Art of Overthinking

I ponder frequently. Scenarios particularly; some possessing a greater probability of occuring than others. But regardless, I cannot help but psychoanalyse every thought that is more probable than improbable. Having social anxiety doesn't really improve my situation.

I'll be going about my normal routine, when suddenly I bump into someone - a family friend. They're a lovely person, yet I have no control over the tremour in my voice nor the suddenly hollow feeling of my eyes. I blink rapidly. My inward confusion about the rapid onset of these symptoms probably worsens my anxiety.

Essentially, I feel like my eyes are about to tear up - but I don't want to cry. I don't feel upset. My brain just decided to slam dunk this in my face. Sigh oh sigh.

I hate my over analysis of life - often when one overanalyses events, one tends to overlook the small yet undeniably important things.

Unspoken Words

I love days like these.

Sitting back against a white wall, lathered in the sun's buttery heat.
Eyes closed.
Lips parted.
Sometimes they quirk up into a smile, imagining that you kissed them while I remained unsuspecting.

The autumn leaves have fallen. Scatterings of ruby, amber and gold. With the season's change, I've noticed your eyes on me in my periphery. When I turned to look at you, you simply held my gaze.

You approached me. You laughed. You got closer. And closer.
The one I once admired from afar stood before me; you're smiling too.

But what exists in your dreams does not in reality.