5 am fancies

5 am
Nears again
My brain whirs
Mechnically
I still remain

Faced with the dark
Eyes wide open
Searching
Foolishly
For answers

#micropoetry

3 am thoughts

Unsurprisingly
He makes
A grand entrance
Into my 3 am thoughts

I'm annoyed (of course).

Sigh

She doesn't remember
How I held
Her wrinkled hands
When she lay unwell.

A hollow shell
Melancholic reminder
Of she who once
Knew me so well

Haven

He finds shelter
In the haven of her hair; in
Mahogany wisps and
Cinnamon curls.

Realising, the
infinite delicacy
of a simple moment.

Tomorrow

I fear
what tomorrow
brings
every day.

I wonder
if it'll justify
me behaving
This way.

Side note: I've decided to feed my fixation with poetry by setting up a twitter account - who knew a community of poets existed here? You can find me at @peoplepuzzleme

I'll be posting some of my twitter creations here also (like this).

I Write

I write to replace
The woes of my mind
With the spark of dreams.

I write
To part from worries
And past troubles.

To breathe.

#micropoetry

Slipping

I can feel myself
beggining to fall back.

Conscious of it.
Wary of what it is.

My willpower wallows;
My motivation
Is gradually ebbing away,
Like flyaway grains of sand in an egg timer.

I want to stop myself; break the glass.
Before it's too late.
Before fearsome thoughts
Become unretractable actions.

Before I permanently imprint the errors of my lacking resolve on my life.

Dear God, help me prevail.

Still

Distance

If I don't stay away,
I'll be closer to and further away from you than before.
I, holding questions in my eyes, while
You merely glance in my direction.

And thus I draw a line under what I wished could be.

Fear

You've done all you can
Worked hard
Cried hard
Sweat hard.

Emailed people until they respond
Stressed endlessly
Learnt every detail needlessly
It made you grow stronger. Work harder.

Yet you can't help but bite your nails -
Knowing that you're in the unknown.

When all you've wanted is being held away from you at arm's length, all you can pray is that hard work pays off.

Because if it doesn't, then what does?

So close to reaching the final hurdle, it'd truly suck to get knocked down now.